I just found out some terrifying, scary, happy, confusing, worst timing news.
I am pregnant.
My husband and I are only “active” every thirty to forty-five days.
I went in to the OBGYN’s office yesterday to get to the bottom of my irregular periods, cystic acne, painful intercourse, facial hair and some other symptoms.
I might have had a hormonal imbalance and needed birth control but the issue is I have a hard time with the only two options that I have for birth control. I can’t have any devices implanted or any IUDs because of the Pyoderma Gangrenousm. The shot and the mini pill turn me into a crazy person. I was ready to beg to get my tubes tied knowing that It might ulcerate out with the Pyoderma.
They did a routine urine sample and everything else.
The urine sample came back pregnant.
I was in complete shock. I started tearing up and since I haven’t been able to stop.
I was done having babies, and my husband and I were in agreement on this.
We are both in a weird happy sad confused state right now.
I have got rid of everything baby related that I had because we were done.
I need to buy everything completely new or find some second-hand options.
I really hope that I am only having one because I only have room in our minivan for one more. So if I am having multiples then we need a bigger van.
We are not sure about how far along I am. I had a blood test and have to have another on Friday to see how far.
I have had some symptoms but all have been easily explainable for possibly other things.
I have been really sick to my stomach but my whole family just had the stomach flu.
I have been really tired but my fibro makes me super tired.
The heartburn has been unbearable lately but I just thought that I was having some weird side effect from one of my many medications.
I was not prepared, I am still processing and I am really worried.
This will be both high risk for both baby and me, labor will be different because of all of my health issues, I am almost guaranteed some bed rest, I have to stop one medication and stop many more over the next few months before they hurt my baby and I have to prepare to have a fifth child.
I know every baby is a blessing, but this is just really bad timing.
I feel like I can only speak to my husband and his side of the family about this because my whole family will flip and talk so much crap and put me down and it sucks.
They will find out eventually when I am huger or come home with a baby but I really don’t want to hear their crap.
I will probably start blogging about pregnancy related things for a while and how my pregnancy goes with my back being broken, my PG, and everything else that is wrong with me.
I have an appointment two hours away tomorrow about my pyoderma so I hope that I will get more answers about how it will affect my pregnancy and unborn child.
Thank you for being here and listing.
Thank you for reading.