Expecting The Unexpected

I just found out some terrifying, scary, happy, confusing, worst timing news.

I am pregnant.

completely unexpected.

My husband and I are only “active” every thirty to forty-five days.

I went in to the OBGYN’s office yesterday to get to the bottom of my irregular periods, cystic acne, painful intercourse, facial hair and some other symptoms.

I might have had a hormonal imbalance and needed birth control but the issue is I have a hard time with the only two options that I have for birth control. I can’t have any devices implanted or any IUDs because of the Pyoderma Gangrenousm. The shot and the mini pill turn me into a crazy person. I was ready to beg to get my tubes tied knowing that It might ulcerate out with the Pyoderma.

They did a routine urine sample and everything else.

The urine sample came back pregnant.

I was in complete shock. I started tearing up and since I haven’t been able to stop.

I was done having babies, and my husband and I were in agreement on this.

We are both in a weird happy sad confused state right now.

I have got rid of everything baby related that I had because we were done.

I need to buy everything completely new or find some second-hand options.

I really hope that I am only having one because I only have room in our minivan for one more. So if I am having multiples then we need a bigger van.

We are not sure about how far along I am. I had a blood test and have to have another on Friday to see how far.

I have had some symptoms but all have been easily explainable for possibly other things.

I have been really sick to my stomach but my whole family just had the stomach flu.

I have been really tired but my fibro makes me super tired.

The heartburn has been unbearable lately but I just thought that I was having some weird side effect from one of my many medications.

I was not prepared, I am still processing and I am really worried.

This will be both high risk for both baby and me, labor will be different because of all of my health issues, I am almost guaranteed some bed rest, I have to stop one medication and stop many more over the next few months before they hurt my baby and I have to prepare to have a fifth child.

I know every baby is a blessing, but this is just really bad timing.

I feel like I can only speak to my husband and his side of the family about this because my whole family will flip and talk so much crap and put me down and it sucks.

They will find out eventually when I am huger or come home with a baby but I really don’t want to hear their crap.

I will probably start blogging about pregnancy related things for a while and how my pregnancy goes with my back being broken, my PG, and everything else that is wrong with me.

I have an appointment two hours away tomorrow about my pyoderma so I hope that I will get more answers about how it will affect my pregnancy and unborn child.

Thank you for being here and listing.

Thank you for reading.


13 thoughts on “Expecting The Unexpected

  1. I can so relate expect we don’t have any more room in our truck for another and this 4th baby of ours is due in 9 days… I dont have any newborn diapers, clothes, crib or car seat… Obviously I’ll have to breastfeed and get some of these things within the next 9 days but gosh every baby is a blessing but timing is not always on our side! GOOD LUCK!

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  2. I wish you the best of luck this next months. I can really understand you’re both scared and shocked!!! I can’t even imagine how it feels to expecting your fifth child. Will follow your journey ❤️

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  3. Best wishes! It must be so hard with autoimmune issues. I became pregnant once after I was diagnosed with Lupus and RA 28 years ago. I miscarried at 5-1/2 months. It made me realize how much I wanted a second child and made me love my son even more.

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  4. I pray your pregnancy goes without any issues. I know it’s a shock for your family right now but try to embrace this still. I had not been diagnosed with Lupus yet although I did have Lupus back then, when I had my son, but I was high risk and I developed HELLP syndrome at 7 months. It is like the worst pre-eclampsia. Just listen to your doctors and don’t take chances if you feel something is off. Trust your gut. I can’t imagine being pregnant with a broken back..yikes.
    Congratulations and best wishes.

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    1. Thank you. I will probably go in wvwry other week then weekly on the last trimester. They told me that I will have an ultrasound in 2 weeks and a few more this pregnancy. Its scary for sure. Ive got a new set of drs this time so that part is scary too. Thank you

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