Some Good News And Some Maybe Bad News

This winter break has been exhausting.

I will start with the good news.

The kids got adopted for Christmas, not literally adopted but in a Christmas spirit way.

A local company adopted my family and had reached out through the school.

The school nurse is close to our family and she asked us to write down our  children’s names, ages, favorite color, clothing sizes, shoe sizes and their hobbies because she had  group whom wanted to adopt a family for the holidays.

I wrote a letter and sent it back.

The week before Christmas we had to pick up the items from the school after we had dropped the older two off.

There was close to sixty packages, all wrapped and labeled.

I bawled my eyes out with tears of joy and we had the biggest Christmas that we have ever had.

The kids were so surprised because they knew that money was tight and that my health is not doing too well. They would have been happy with just Christmas breakfast and spending their dads day off with him.

Money is so tight this year with waiting for SSI and everything and this was just amazing. There are truly some great people out there.

There is some bad news or maybe bad news.

As you know I have had many medical issues.

I had some blood work done to confirm pregnancy. I was beginning to feel okay with the idea. I felt like wow I got this.

Then came the simi-bad news. My progesterone levels aren’t coming up as they should. They are low, I am experiencing mild spotting and cramping on the right side. I have an ultrasound coming up unless I start gushing blood.

I have been in and out of the Emergency Room in major pain feeling like death and just given tylonal.

I am off all of my pain meds, and muscle relaxers. It is hard to function and care for everyone.

This pregnancy might not stick. It may be eptopic, or chemical. This is sad to me. I just got used to the idea and now I don’t know what to think or do.

I have only told my sister-in-laws and my sister. I don’t want to explain how yeah I was pregnant but the baby didn’t make it. I would rather tell in a few months if it all works out and go from there.

My sister had to of told everyone.

My  sister-in-laws are understanding and understand the situation. My sister is the only other person that knew.

The whole time that I have been trying to cope and deal with everything that is going on I have had almost everyone in my family harass me, telling me that they know I am pregnant and that my sister told my brother whom told everyone else.

I can not trust anyone anymore. I feel completely betrayed. I feel like I am going to break down every time that someone asks me or tells me that I’m pregnant.

I am trying my best to stay strong for my family. It’s just so hard and some people are being really nasty.

I am thankful that I became pregnant, many people try to try and can not conceive. I am thankful for the opportunity to be a new mother once over again if this pregnancy lasts.

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6 thoughts on “Some Good News And Some Maybe Bad News

  1. I’M sorry, dealing with a surprise pregnancy isn’t exactly fun. And then the thought of losing your baby is even worse. I went through a partial placental abruption. I started gushing blood and when I walked into the er I was told that I was having a miscarriage. I was terrified and broken, until they did the ultrasound and I heard a heart beat. I was so happy words can not explain. After bed rest, 17hrs of labor, and an emergency c-section, my beautiful baby boy was born happy and healthy. It was hard, but it got easier. I think it’ll get easier for you too.

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    1. We figured out why the levels were too low. I am only 7 weeks along. It felt good to hear that theres a better chance of things being ok but its still going to be high risk with all of my health issues.

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  2. That’s great that you figured that out! But yea I get that it’ll be high risk. And not fun for you either having pain issues and other health issues I’ll make it difficult but not impossible. Remember that God will be there for you to help you when you need him

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  3. I had a forced miscarriage at 12 weeks. Just a week before we had announced to everyone that we were pregnant. It was heartbreaking to announce to people who were calling in to congratulate that there was no baby anymore. Take care and let the nature take its course! It’s always for the best!

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